Regret

One of the biggest things I'll regret is not trying my best in Yr 11. It started with everyone saying "Oh dw, yr 11 doesn't count". They're right, it doesn't count towards HSC but it still counts. I've realised this a while ago but Yr 12 is our HSC year, which means there's no room for making mistakes there. So instead of starting to really try in year 12, why not start in yr 11? Yr 11 means making mistakes. If you try your best and it doesn't turn out well, then you know what to do to improve. It leaves you time to work on something before the HSC year starts. It's the last term of Yr 11 but it's not too late. I'm going to try my best for the Prelims and if my results aren't what I expected, then at least I know what to do for HSC. 

This weird feeling of emptiness is coming back to me..bad timing. 

R.I.P

You know when you've had something for not even 1 month and you lost it? That's what happened to me this morning. Last night, I noticed my rabbit was acting strange. She wasn't moving anything except her nose, she didn't eat or drink and she didn't respond to sounds and smells. I let her out of her house and she slowly hops out and hurried underneath the back of the table. My dad put her back in the house and she still didn't move or anything. I knew she was sick and always thinking of the worst, I thought she wasn't going to survive after tonight. I told the rest of my family and I sat next to her for an hour, studying for a test I had the next day. Everyone said that she was going to be fine. But for once the worst came. I woke up and went to check up on her and she was lying there. I had found out she passed away last night while I was asleep and everyone else was awake. Heart attack. I was sad but I didn't cry and just went off to tutor. It was only 15 minutes ago when it hit me that that moment last night was the last time I was going to see her and that's when the tears just poured. It's only been 2 weeks but I've gotten attached to her; playing and feeding with her everyday. Every time I think or mention her I get teary (so if you read this, please don't mention it after a while). My dad buried her this morning and I guess that's it. 

16 Things You Didn't Know About Sleep

The best things come unexpected

I really don't know the best way to start this off. I guess I'll just start from the top. As usual, Monday nights are dreadful cos it's the start of the week. I got home from Uplift, watched Masterchef then the Shire. When I entered my sister's (Sandra) room today, I saw a packet of animal food, which I assumed was sheep food. My other sister (Alice) was in Sandra's room, which was weird becos no one stays in Sandra's room for more than 5 minutes. It was also weird  because the heater was on and the room was so damn warm. So I ignored all that and went back to watching TV. My other sister (Wendy) came home and we all gathered around the TV and this is how the conversation went:

Wendy: Are we telling her now?
Sandra: Yeah, okay, ready?
Alice: Don't freak out..but
Wendy: Whatever you do, just remain calm and do not scream or anything
Sandra: Yeah pleaseeee keep calm becos I know you'll freak out.
Me: Don't waste my time, what is it?!
Sandra: There's a rabbit in my room
Alice: She bought it today
Wendy: From the pet store
Me: What?! I don't believe you, your pranks aren't very effective.

So they showed me a picture of a rabbit in Sandra's room on the iPad.

Me: WHAAAAT?! I won't believe it till I see it.
Sandra: Let's go see it then.

One by one, we raced out of the room and rushed into Sandra's room.

They sat me down on the bed and took out a big plastic container.

and then before I knew it,

 out hopped this tiny

white
&
grey
little rabbit.

Mind you, I've never felt this intense feeling of pure excitement/shock in my life, so I didn't know how to react to it. The first thing I did was start crying then and there. My sisters laughed at me but I kept crying becos it was such an overwhelming feeling. The rabbit is so cute, hopping around the room & suddenly everything started to make sense. The animal food was in fact rabbit food, the heater was on because rabbits need a warm environment & Alice was there since Wendy was at tutor and Sandra had piano lessons. I found out, they bathed the rabbit after school becos she peed on her feet. They gave her pieces of carrot to eat and left some water.

So here's the story. Sandra bought the rabbit after school today for $20 at the local pet store along with the food. idk how she managed but she got it home and till this moment...

my parents do not know. 

That feeling..

That feeling when you've just discovered an artist or singer. If the first song captures you, you believe their other songs will do just the same. You're so mesmerized by their voice, the melody, even how they look when they're singing. You youtube every song and learn the lyrics just in a few minutes. Those are the artists who are timeless. 

Birdy`LanaDelRey`Marina&theDiamonds

Flightless bird

There's this song that reminds me of you so much. Maybe because it's random. I wonder if there will be a time when I get to tell you face to face how much you've taught me...& I just wanted to thank you for that. 

Camera Appreciation Post

My "bleh mood" playlist

Flightless bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine
Hotel California - Eagles
Lonely Boy - Black Keys
Paradise - Coldplay
99 Problems - Hugo cover
Lose Yourself - Eminem 
Riverside - Agnes Obel
Seven Devils - Florence and the Machine
Marvin's Room - Drake
Heartless - William Fitzsimmons (Kanye West cover)
Billie Jean - The Civil Wars cover

Dream #4

 Pongua Falls, Vietnam

 Intercontinental Hotel and Thalasso Spa - Bora Bora

 Blue Lagoon, Reykjavik - Iceland

 Lady Musgrave Island, Great Barrier Reef, Australia

 Shangri-La's Barr Al Jissah Resort - Oman

Positano, Amalfi Coast, Italy

Dream #3

 Tian Tan Buddha on Lantau Island, Hong Kong

 Porto Katsiki, Lefkada Island, Greece

William Bay, Western Australia

 Myrtos Beach, Kefalonia - Greece

Baatara Gorge Waterfall, Tannourine - Lebanon

Dream #2

Wineglass Bay, Freycinet National Park, Tasmania, Australia

 Capilano Suspension Bridge, Vancouver, British Columbia

 Restaurant near Sanyou Cave above the Chang Jiang river, Hubei , China.

 Skaftafeli - Iceland

 Multnomah Falls, Oregon

 Blue Caves - Zakynthos Island, Greece

 Riomaggiore, Italy

 Marble Caves, Chile Chico, Chile

 New York City.

 Petra - Jordan 

Sky Lantern Festival - Taiwan.

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2Yb6Ck/:tRGs$c!w:TeQG+BkW/www.thecoolhunter.co.uk/article/detail/1957/amazing-places-to-experience-around-the-globe-part-1/

Holey shit!

The story on how my sister pierced her ear. 

Sandra: I soaked the earring in salt water first. A lot of people usually use alcohol but if it's bad for your body, it's bad for your ear so I used salt water.

Me: Okay..then what?

Sandra: I held the stud bit of the earring to let it dry.

Me: ...

Sandra: Youtube told me to cut a piece of the apple and place it behind my ear to keep it in place. But my ear was too small so I just held my ear with my fingers. I got a piece of ice and kept it there for a while so it gets numb. Then I plunged the earring into my ear but then it didn't go through. I did this 3 times and on the fourth go, it went through.

Me: & it didn't bleed...?

Sandra: No..but my finger did.

Me: HAHAHAHA YOUR FINGER BLED? BUT NOT YOUR EAR?

Sandra: cos when it went through, my finger was there so it went into my finger a little bit.

Me: You know it's gnna get infected. There's a reason why professionals use real earrings.

Sandra: Nah, it won't get infected becos I disinfected it with salt water & plus I use the spray twice a day.

Me: It's going to corrode in your ear and get infected.

Sandra: No, Youtube said it wouldn't do that.

Me: Well I guess Youtube is always right.

Dream

My ultimate dream would be a high-paid photographer. (High paid cos I need money) It would be just amazing to travel the world and capture the most precious things from each country and possibly city. I was surfing the net and found this photographer's website, which contains beautiful images. Here's the website if you wanna check it out: http://www.simonchristen.com/index.php

Rushing in to never get anything finished.

Yesterday I got home from tutor and realised there was this green thing on one my my sister's (Sandra) ear. It was an earring. I found out that she pierced it herself because she was desperate to get that snake earring, which wraps around your ear. Stupid wannabe hipster bitch. I don't know how she did it, but it didn't bleed and the youtube history was filled with "How to pierce your own ears" videos. I agree, the earring is very cool but piercing your ear just for that is pathetic. I'm just waiting for it to get infected to teach her a lesson. 

For me...

Our generation will be the generation that took things for granted; the generation who didn't make the most out of life; the generation that cared too much about society and too little about ourselves.

It's been a while..

Winter's hitting us in the face every morning when we get up and go to school. Despite that the sunrises & sunsets in Winter aren't like any other seasons. You could say the most beautiful, pastel sunsets and sunrises are in season. It's always the simple things. For me, it's usually the simplicity but depth of words, colours, music, lights and photographs. Taking pictures of sunsets and sunrises is definitely one of the things on the top of my "what i like to do" list. Anyway hope you remaining readers have a lovely holiday. Won't be blogging much! 

Can't wait till I see this in 2013.

Pointless but Reasonable

I knew it. My anticipation grew day by day, I'm actually surprised to hear that after 3 weeks. It's so expected of you, talking shit, putting other people down and feeling superior about it. How weak. And that two faced messenger of yours isn't even affecting us. No matter how successful I'll become in the future, I know you'll always be looking down on me, but I guess sooner or later you'll be looking up at us with pure regret.

The devil inside me..

This morning, I woke up to find a bunch of photos beside my bed. I had no idea what they were doing there especially cos they were stuck on my wall. Then I remembered during sleeping, I suddenly rose, extended my arm and started peeling random photos off the wall with my eyes closed, then laid them down on the ground and continued to sleep. It was kinda freaky I guess since I didn't recall waking up...& why photos? Just hope these things don't happen at camp!

Cool Calm Collected

Wow...I don't know where to start. Don't you have respect for yourself? Don't you have anything better to do? Jealousy. It'll drown you. How can you continuously make up bullshit when I'm out of your life already, I have no connection to you anymore. I don't want to be angry about this but it's hard to understand what you're trying to do. Talking me down will only make me stronger.

You are cordially invited...

Attending a royal ball would be an absolute dream. 

When it was the Yr. 10 formal, it was fun & chaotic dressing up; make-up, shopping, jewellery, etc but it just doesn't compare to all the things you have to do if you were to go to a ball. I always enjoy scenario-ing it. First you squeeze into the corset, then comes that big round thing to make your dress puffy at the bottom, then the complex but elegant hairstyling & then jewellery and yeah you get the point. I would feel soo beautiful, wearing those heavy, long sleeved olden day gowns. Makes everything seem more...enchanting. The only bad thing would be the waltzing. I can't dance lol. & it would be so awkward waltzing with a guy..like I wouldn't know where to look. I'm just awkward overall. I guess the closest thing to a royal ball is probably your wedding.

Things to cramp before camp.

- go thrifting cos I can't be wearing dress or skirts out there lol
- buy film for underwater camera
- pay deposit
- figure out cabin for 4 D:

Mother's Day Eve

I always have the tendency to give my mum/dad their presents one day before the actual date. So I gave my mum her mother's day gift tonight. I got her a soft-red blouse from Dotti, which looked really lovely. I told her to show it off to my aunties tomorrow, since their sense of fashion is close to non-existent. Then my Daddy decided to give his gift as well. He got her this amazing, thick cookbook. The variety of cuisines and dishes in there made my mouth water. & even better, it has a recipe on how to make Indian Chai :) My sisters & I are currently marking the recipes we wanna try and so far we're not even halfway but have 32 in mind. I know how people say that there's no point to mother's day because you should love your mum everything..and it's true. But it's not everyday that you give her a gift or make her food, etc. It's just that one day dedicated to her, which makes it special. Anyway hope you guys have a lovely mother's day tomorrow! :)

Friday Night Muse

Drops of Jupiter - Train
Shelter - Birdy
Kids (Acoustic) - MGMT
Brother - Matt Corby
Skinny Love - Birdy
Love or Die - Travis Garland
Born to Die (Mulberry version) - Lana Del Rey
Big Jet Plane - Angus & Julia Stone
Little House - Amanda Seyfried
People Help the People - Birdy
What Makes us Girls - Lana Del Rey
Safe & Sound - Taylor Swift
Princess of the Night - Richard Clayderman

What if you're having a bad hair day?

I was on youtube the other day and came across videos on how to fix a bad hair day. Most of them went on and on and I don't see how it would help messy, knotty, frizzy hair. Plaiting or braiding won't help & curling/straightening will definitely not help either! If you're having a bad hair day, I think the easiest thing to do is tie it up or bun it. lol

Exploration Date.

I can't wait to travel over the world. 

Photos by thecherryblossomgirl